“The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.”
– M. Scott Peck

Breathe

Checking in and letting you all know that I’m doing really well.

Surprisingly, well.

I have really, really, REALLY enjoying having my own space.

And my own time.

My room is almost fully decorated, just waiting on a tapestry from Amazon (the original one was in not so good shape). And the return of my papasan chair, my friend has been “storing” it for me. My room is spacious and light. There is empty space as I don’t feel the need to pack every little corner. And so much light. I’m back to having East facing windows. I missed getting good sunlight in my room – especially upon waking (my ex was a blackout curtain user, damn those night owls).

I’ve been waking up early again, as is my natural rhythm and I just feel better. I’ve been eating cleaner again (my ex was a great cook, and while I appreciated the many, many dinners he made, I missed my greens and my lighter fares). I’m getting back into running. I have the space to really stretch. And the best part is, now that I’m back near campus (10 min commute vs 40 min commute) I feel like I’m home again. I don’t feel like I can’t do something after work because I am dreading the exhaustion that comes with a long drive home.

I am hitting up all my favorite and very missed old haunts. Don’t worry, they are mostly outside places like beaches and parks. Although there was a week or so of some solid missed takeout. I’ve been meeting friends for coffee at my favorite cafe – outdoor seating of course. I’ve been doing weekly dinners with the ladies on Wednesdays. This has been the most needed. Do not underestimate the power of female friendships and the support that they give. Especially when paired with good food and a little booze.

Now that I feel like I’m getting back to myself and not walking on eggshells I feel like I can finally relax. I don’t need to hold my breath anymore. I can breathe. Oh how, I’ve missed this.

And oh, how I need to take care to not let this go again.